BIRTHDAYYYYY

woops, its not mine ;)



but MISS CASEY's.


ooh la-la, well i made the 1st attempt at wishes! in person.


kudos to 8 years with this besty friend thru good & bad---

*bad--->understatement*


i let out...a low but audible blow of gas barrage from my anus....and then she complimented...
10 seconds later, with her own EQUAL fart.

that's how true friendship should be! lmao.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY BIRTHDAY BIRTHDAY MY FEM BUDD.

here's to more years.


i cheer it with my pop open of a MONSTER can!

Had some Krispy Kreme, watched COMMUNITY, and let them play League of Legends. MORE TO COME....
ITS ONLY 1:20 AM





(side note---my own birthdays spent unwisely with wrong persons)
danna-medieval times 2011, joe,devon,-medieval times 2012, joe/lukas-sea world 2013
(Lukas not the bad 1)

the true...JSALLY

Jennifer Ross

I looked to you like a savior. I loved you. Intensely. Sweetly. Whole heartedly. I take no offense. I know my origins are twisted and sick.

DAMN it ALL

OK so JENNA let me down.


the fucking bitch cheated on me.
OHHHH YESSS.


life goes down once again.


 to have a girl avoid wishing me a happy thanksgiving and avoiding my sadness.....

cuz she was with another guy on/off for several months.
(during her time with him, she even texted me saying
 'wtf go away' 'i will block you if you dont stop texting me'
NO GF WOULD SAY THAT.
I DONT CARE HOW MAD SHE MAY BE.....

SELFISH FUCKING CUNT. SHE THOUGHT SHE DIDNT NEED ME!! DAMN DAMN DAMN.


FUCKING DONT GET IT, I REALLY DONT.


such love is wasted, as usual. why the fuck do i bother.
BECAUSE I BELIEVE IN A HIGHER CONCEPT.


GOSH DAMNIT.

soooo, she urges to make it work.
i just dont know. Trust is an impossible concept.

BETRAYED. I AM SO UTTERLY BROKEN.

2 CeLEBS

they are easy to come by.



AND SOME DAY AGO..
i saw.... 

a tall, full haired, rather toned built man. 

NO, this is not my gay disclosure.


i just notice good men from lame ones. AND...on a more notable realization..90% of men i see wear hats! or beanies.

But this post is focused on TWO celebs, not men and their weak appearances.

a Man & a Woman.


The Man was....
KEVIN SORBO!

the hercules guy. ha.


the next one was MUCH more exciting.

I was asked a random question and I was having no idea what she meant...but rather i was having trouble holding back my laughs/smiles of glee.


She was blonde, pleasant, a nice face and rather comforting.


This woman was...
 Kerri Kenney-Silver!

Deputy Trudy Wiegel on Comedy Centrals Reno 911

(her on the left)
and more recently 
Its Always Sunny in Philadelphia!


super awesome. i just wanted to spout her out but i didnt want to make her uncomfortable lol

gooooood stuff :)

...it's happening

HOLY FUCKPASTEEEE!!!


after all this time. 

around the hours of 1-4 am FRIDAY DEC, 6 2013

Jennifer Ross.
"Jensie" has finally allowed myself a chance at some comradery. Do i dare to accept a connect?


I WILL. but...i can't be foolish around this time.

ONLY A FRIEND.
THE. friend.


*HYPERVENTILATING*

this actually matters to me!
i am such a fucking pyschotic mensa. 
she cared about me and HELPED me...and actualy 'loved' me. IKR.
i..just let her down.
and...she yelled at me a bit till the disappearance.


WAAAAAAAAIT, i did see her at a bookstore. SHE ACCUSED ME OF TRYING TO KISS HER!


what total bullshit. UGH!!
 
so prognosis. I may be semi-happy at this option of her friendship return,  but tread careful.
maybe...it's just a seeking of attention. or EVEN...
BOREDOM >. >


fuck!!
FUCK FUCKIN FUCK FUCK.  


i hate being so alone and frustrated lately. I have friends like Lukas & Jason which are adequate..but i still feel empty.

(Mainly cuz my "partner" is a foolish pain.)

and...all these people who owe me money and girls who lie to me.
ugh.

BACK TO THE SUBJECT.
jennifer wants to be a friend. damn, i sound sick in the head. IT'S ONLY A REQUEST.

then later i can acquire a number.

FOCUS ON JENNA. SHE's the woman to yourself.
and hasn't let you down dramatically like the others...

I enjoy my CASEY tho. I've been through more with her than any human thought possible.
Gah, that woman is such a funky goof. She's like my shadow.
it's pretty sweet.
:)

Stan Lee 013'

I'VE FINALLY HIT SUPER POPULARITY!
(2013 gold)

all...because i managed to be myself in a public setting ...


and
my pose doesn't suck..


hardee-har.



i dont care that much, but i knew it was a FUCKING RADD picture!

JENNA SEZ!

waff waff. 

up-up & awaaaaay!



so this is the halloween month and this is MAD REALISM.




"Brandon your perfect and it scares me so much to think that everything we have could
change if for some reason I don't feel that connection with you in person"


I don't know how to explain it and I don't understand why it happens but im scared that I
may lose the best thing that's ever happened to me, on my account.


If it happens, then it does.

But I don't want it to!


It's more painful wondering the big What if
Otherwise I'm just a voice or a few words on a screen..


I want there to be that moment of finally being complete with you by my side.

Exactly.

No your not. You're everything to me


No matter what happens, I will ALWAYS love you with every beat of my heart for the rest
of my life Brandon Cooper. You have a piece of me I will never get back nor do I want back.
My flame will always burn for you.

That's very pleasant, but don't feel obligated. I will date you as a good boyfriend I aim to be.
You will just pain yourself with so much heart put out there hun. I want to receive it and cherish it
when you are capable.


I know you will and please, I don't feel obligated those are my honest feelings and I want you to
remember that.
Brandon, you've had my heart.

I will. You, as my other half, i will.


I love you so much it hurts.

You are the most adorable, talented, loving, caring, equal companion I could have ever hoped for.


:) I want to stay that way.


*muah
I am ready.

*muah. I know you are, your the strong one of the two of us. I'll be the one leaning on you to keep
me from falling.
Lol usually my memory is shit but that was a very precious moment.
It meant alot to me bc I had finally broken through the walls.
I taught you how to truly let go and fall in love.

*licks your cheek and scrambles out from under u

You just think cuz you managed to get brandon to have feelings for an actual human makes you god??


Lmao God? Ooh no no of course not but I do have a power over you no one else has ;p




My delicious cutie to melt in my arms :)

And in your mouth ;p.... O.o ooh naughty me sorry

Never! Never sorry.
I want to play miss Jenna into a frenzy


Hehe I'm all yours. ;)




Sweetheart i owe you the thanks not the other way around.

Indeed  but you have beyond proven yourself to me

We aren't even in the same world as them babe.


..no one is taking me away from you Brandon

I just wanted my gf to find me funny or pretty or handsome or..remarkable

You are all those things darling and I want to keep them all to myself! I don't want to share 
that with anyone. 

GIRLS; how i know THEE

ok then. 

I DESPISE WRITING IN THIS FASHION.
i am never sure how to start.




so these girls i have had my time with will now GET a comparison rating by NUMBERS


as they should be. 

*ratings based on body, style, personality and how i zing with said person*
Alli----- 2.5

Sarah---3

Clarissa--- 4

Juju---- 4.5
 
Jessyka--- 5

Brandie---5.2


Jennifer Swanson-- 5.5

Carol---6.5

Linsdsay (hippie bleachblondeshorthair) ---6

Jenny R--- 6.8

Jenna Saltsman ---7

Danielle-- 7

Marion-- 7.2

Brittany--- 8

Katie---8

Lia--8

Jennie M--- 8.5

Jennifer "Jensie" Ross .---- 9.5

amazing BRUNETTE

Amazing brunette sucking dick

Mmmmmm.yes.

great GREAT skin and mouth.


and..the tight fucking hips.

tight stomach-
holy effing shit.

AND...SHE LIKES THE ATTN.

SAFFRON CHIM!

she. was very VERY playful tonight omg.


crawled up my shorts by my crotch.
wouldn't leave. Crawling on my shoulder 6x or so.


nuzzling me all over. Nuzzle nuzzle...

moving into my arm. slipping off my lap to the floor like 6x also...

sounds like a koosh ball when she falls...


and even putting her paws and self onto my phone as i was texting.


I HONESTLY...think she is smart enough to know she wasn't geting ALL the attention on her! :3

okokok

thoughts thoughts thoughts....



i drove Amanda to BJs..
we played together really well.
Sat in the corner waiting for our table...kinda.. watched porn on her phone?
for like 3 secs.
*hip bumped very cute-like

 talked goofy stuff; ordered like as a pair. thinking as a unit.


touched fingertips :)

i cradled her foot in my my feets (shoes)


and then...at some point pretty much near end of food time..she wanted to put her foot up.


then both feet.

She massaged my crotch *cock* for a long while with her feet.
Rubbing up and down alot.


I didn't really have weirdness about it.
I turned away and she was smiling at me all cute-like and then giggling behind her napkin.


Put her foot down and eventually put 1 up again and started massaging my cock *shorts*
and asked if it was my penis.


I said 'yes.'

she got all totally embarrassed and quiet.

then she wanted a smoke to be alone. i eventually let her.

nice night. not bothered by her act.
i found it fun :)


Also.. she smacked my butt at work a bunch.

this is the end.~

OK OK OK...


so i know i am not loaded with monies yet, BUT...


a new post i found said the perfect age of marriage would  be~
( man-29, woman-27. )



this sounds like a sign to me and i seriously think sooo well of my Jenna.


I might be going far like i have before, but this seems different. 


REALLY, SOMEHOW..


here's hopin;

Oo__________oO

I GOTZ A CAR!

2011 HONDA ACCORD.


SONIC the hedgehog figure (Barnes & Noble sale) was with me!!

its...very sweet vehicle i say..


black exterior, black interior, smooth smooth smoooth.

EYEYEYE

this guy right hur.


might actually have a decent friend.


i'm getting excited. 


WOAH SIMBA, keep dat in yo trousers!

this ain't jungle book!

crawww

....



I SOLD MY NISSAN XTERRA 01



for....

$4500


after 2005-2103


8years and now gone.
memories and all.

O.o....

i have an ex...or 1 in particular i am...


great enough (with)




AND SHE SAID THIS...

"It's just that I really thought at one point we would be together n now we just talk about u with other people n part of me wants to feel like its cheating on me even tho we broke up forever ago n obviously i'm happy n moved on I don't know why....
i'm a little crazy. U can stop talking to me if u want."

hahaha my friend...JOSEPH..
is a total gaywad. 



EVEN I CANT MAKUP SHIT THIS GOOD



XD
 o 3 o
 one moment he says THIS TO ME....


" I am not entering into a pissing match with the asshole she is going to end up with. There is no reason 
for me to continue this charade. What am I going to do, kiss her ass and tell her everything is going to be okay?
Meanwhile history just repeats itself. My prediction will happen without a doubt."

THEN



to the same girl he says...


"I cannot adequately express through text message how sorry I am. While initially good intentioned, my actions
regressed to being inexcusably insensitive. Please forgive me for my faulty judgement. If there is anything
I might do on your behalf do not hesitate to ask. You know I wouldn't intentionally harm you during a 
strenuous interval."



 

DP, OH Y'ALL KNOW ME!

....or maybe they dont?


am i THE ONLY FAN?!? rawr.

or not. but seriously i am




so lets talk of the AMAZING, ASTOUNDING MERC WITH...THE GABBY FACE RECEPTACLE HOLE.


THE NEW GAME!!
*2013 SUCCESS*


kinda?

Lets see... lets see....
THINGS I FUCKIN'LOOOOVE.


his humor about NUMBER 1 fan girl
*boob touchy*
 AND the...scene with Vertigo!! hahah 
'Vertigo....not now, i got a headache babe.... *BARFF'

the Transformers reference..
+ the boot with this boot so i can stomp ya while i stomp ya!

super fun that whole boot action playtime.
OH GOSH, the momentum stuff is SUPER FREAKING AMAZING.

best thing of any character fight adventure game.
The mallets twirling one yes! and the psai blades are too much fun.

also...when he has the uzis and spins around shooting everybody.

THE...THING I LOOOOVE VERY VERY MUCH.
is when he is all gooey with Death. She is hawt. and..totally the ruler of all Death!!
yay.

(very much like my Jenna! )
 


so pretty. both of em

NEXT>...
THINGS>.....i kinda am ok with ?

 

EMO

EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO EMO......



EMO EMO EMOOOOOO

so like....
THIS IS A STORY OF WHAT I LIKES TO GLOSS OVER SEVERELY.

  DEATH,

SONIC RELATED MATERIAL


FASHION

HATE TOWARDS HUMANITY
**DISGUST, DISTASTE, POOR FORM OF BODY, DECAY................
DECAY..........



DECAY.............

ROTTING FLESH.....ROTTING PERSONALITY
DEATH


DEATH....

 OBSESSION WITH 1SELF



VILLAINY. EVIL..
FUCKING EVIL INCARNATE 

letting nothing hold you back

evil circulating...

DEATH.

happy happy day.

  

;D

null



fun, hun bang.

TATTS, TATTS, & MORE TATTS!

lets see, says i.

the me, i chose to be CHAPTER 1


accept your spouse for ALL THEIR FLAWS, no matter how NUMEROUS they may be!

BLOOD LUST
May 28, 2013


Brandon gets an inkjob update :)

venom/demon takeover begins!

JUNE 28, 2012

Sonic the hedgehog! commemorative! necessary mos def.

:)


CHARLIE'S HOUSE OF TATTOOS

NOVEMBER 29, 2009

happy face/optimistic approach with cautionary sign encapsulation



ATOMIC TATTOO

MAY 12, 2008 

my "Blade" perfection piece. Vampires, darkness, blood, music & success!
 Entrusting my every twinge on my personality

(with a delicate touch from the artist!)
*spike on the end* 


 

OI VAY! HATE IS MY PURITY. HATE GIVES ME STRENGTH. HUMAN TO HELL I CAST THEE.

Hmm.........



where did i think i could TRUST again?

>.<

ugh, fuckity fuck!


so this is what she says...
*even after her foolfuckin' ways*
I love you so much, you mean the world to me … Without you I’d be lost. You saved me from my misery , please don’t ever let me go. Happy almost birthday <3
I love you  
april 17th


AND THIS IS WHAT SHE SAYS BEFORE...

XPOSED:

(outside)










 THIS. was a very fulfilling experience, i must say. 
my *Tfriend* might be a bit off-kilter, but his help in this endeavor was most brilliant.


I really REALLY have had all nerves shot over attendance to 1 of these.
without his assistance this would have never become a reality.


when we first got in there was a small room & the attendance fee of $20. and you get the glo- handstamp.



  Upon walking in there was so much a daze with all the lights and naked.
There on the center stage was the 1st dancer.
Fully tatt body, not too bad looking but we grabbed some high stools against the wall. I was very awkward and not knowing how to handle myself. The dancer was capable of nice movements on the pole (alot werent)

The only problem was she was TOTALLY flat. Later Joe thought she might have been a man at 1 point LOL
There is the reason he never picked her as the looker. To start off Joe took a wander to the bar to pick up his drink.


I sat there still out of place till a nice looking brunette approached me saying
"You look thrilled to be here."
(ha, yea she saw right through me)
 As the night went on she proved to be the most friendly and helped me especially get ok with the environment.
 
Eventually my bud got up and threw some bills on the dance walk, with a smirk on his face.


(ACTUALLY NOW THAT I RECALL, MY 1st STRIP CLUB WAS FOR A BUTCHER BABIES PERFORMANCE) 
*no nude tho* This 1 was much better than that. The environment and all.

Within time it seemed a lil difficult to find comfort so some 45 mins later we got front seats in plush couch seats.

Time went on and on AND on.......




Then came the peer pressure! >.<
My co-hort was saying if i didn't go up to the dance walk floor and throw some bills he would never go with me again.

 
I was cursing at him and saying how much of a jerk he was, but all in good fun.

Nerves going crazy..
I kept waiting and waiting till i found the right type of woman.
An attractive blonde with a bangin' bod.

I grabbed my wads of $1s and moved up to the chair by the dance-walk


The gal caught my eye and started crawling over to me... (ignoring the 2 cholos that had been there)

 My heart was beating fast. She made her sexual moves in front of me, i threw a bill. Pushed it in further *like an idiot*
When the next bill came up she moved on me!!

Put her fresh tits right on mah fuckin face! lol
It was beyond wild. I turned my face to the side cuz i was so shocked.

Next, she told me to move my arm and she literally PUT HER LEGS OVER MY SHOULDERS AND PUT HER CUNT IN MAH FACE.

her coochie, Gstring or whatever smelt so fuckin good. omg.

 I threw some more bills on the table. I almost threw my $10s i had no idea.

My bud came up and threw down a wad cuz of how excited he was.

AND JEALOUS.

he thought it was so amazing she did all that for me. I must agree, it was beyond the best.

So once i got back to my seat, much more time went by till he started pressuring me again but harder.

I had to get a lap dance. I did want 1 but ORIGINALLY, i was very ok with just being there and not really interacting.

Soo he was all
"They;re playing the last song! Dang, its over"

haha i freaked. I went up to the gal i wanted, she then led me to the back where all sorts of wonder came forth.

 Blonde with pink highlights and some tatts. I couldn't remember her name, but when she had her top off she did her erotic deal within my cubicle area.


She moved herself all over me, our eyes met up nose to nose, i grabbed onto her shoulders, her ass movin my hands all over her sweet soft bod.

I massaged her, grabbed her hips, she chewed on my ear, chewed on my pants crotch, rode on my lap, and eventually moved my hand to her tit. I grabbed onto both her tits really nice and well. So soft and it was all very swankygreat.



Man, watta night. 
It lasted QUITE a long time it seemed.


I didn't pay her enough but it all went fine.
To finish the night my Tallest friend got his lap dance with the friendly brunette *also a porn star* and once we exited we hit up a Dennys to finish off the awesome of the MONDAY.




WILDEST MONDAY EVER.
I finally had an ok monday. DAMN.       


    
 

JREN

THIS STUFF HITS.
GAH, whatever.


STUFF & THINGS.
human fuck.
of course....


herez some evidence!
have fun.

12' Ruff-RUFF RUFF RUFF RUFF, RUFF.

TW3NTY-TWELVE

*in its glory*

So lets be real here.



THIS YEAR PAST WAS ONE OF FANTASTIC (in some ways)




Firstly....


I had a good grip of gals who wanted my 'time.'


Chanel, Juju, Jenny, Jessyka & an Allie


and a 


SONIC tatt was created!
June 30
(commemorative of 21st bday)

upon my waist. 

with Joe.. >.>


and...
and..
I GOT A HEDGEHOG PET!!

*Saffron* is the name


Have a Universal Studios pass.

Hm.



Fulfilled a new beginning with this JENNY person.


Went to this place called TIPSY GOAT. 

not my thing but its ok.

SAW......a raccoon in public! on the street with Chanel.


GOT TO SEE CASEY @ the Northridge mall with her kid/husband/ and lil nephew. (its been like 4 years)



FIRST TIME >>> STAN LEE'S COMIKAZE!!! <<<<


yay.

ALSO..


Near the end i somehow acquired 2 jobs.

Toys R Us & Bed Bath.



Saw some Blaine in my dreams....
hm, idk of the fun there.


woah. ok.

Took a plane to ALABAMA to meet with ms. Christina!
it happened. ooh, wowie.


lets hope goodness of the 2013.

did you now. huh heh hoe a-ha.

ok-ok-ok. well then...

human beings are a disease; a cancer of this planet and some men just want to watch the world burn-


In my quick lil prognosis here, i see a good snatch-aroo or 2 or several more.




Classic Amy *rip torn and set under*

Leonardo mask *rip tore and set up above on the column backing*

Rigby raccoon plush *a simple slip into the storage*


candies...
red vine pack

 glowie gel bracelets! *easy slide*


rainbow hole belt *had the employee help and stranger engage in tearing the tag off*
(worn right outta there)



IS THERE ANY POINT TO THIS.

not essentially, but pragmatically i sense a sickness in my blood and it quenches for more.

More, MORE, moooare. 

yea, ok

So this was 2012 hitting an end.

not..too pleasing.

if (anything) a little fucked the HELL up.


My original thought plan was to have some bonding with a nice restaurant *my fave 1*,

bit of ice skating, playing with Saffie, cuddling up ina sleeping bag in a pretty locale, while we snuggled and watched humans while fireworks shot off...



Instead---


we sat around at her place for a long while with Jenny posting instagrams, texting and whatnot jargon. This led on for a good while till eventually we did some hair/makeup readying *which was fine*
and then we set off for Dreamworld Comics. Fine so far actually till the texts continued..

She was so set on getting a meet-up with 1 of her male friends.
(i was not so keen on it, at all)
She really wanted to introduce me to someone but I thought it was bad timing.
Her mind was right, but the moods were quite off till soon enough 1 of her 'friends' met with us and then the AWKWARD took hold.


Then..this guy wanted to take her in his bedroom so she could help him pick out clothes for his New Years party... -__-


BULL-FUCKIN-SHIT.

it was totally not right. She wanted to set me outside in a strangers pad while she gets man-handled and i am supposed to sit there like a doofus playing Sonic Jump.


I AM NOT A FUCKIN MORON. NOT EVEN SONIC CAN STOP THE SCHEME OF THIS SCENE.

i start pacing around trying to calm my thoughts and distract myself till i can burst in on the 2 of them fucking, So i can then book it the fuck outta there. Jenny will be tearing to fuck and i get my life on with no skin off my nose.



I HAVE NEVER BEEN TAKING FOR A SAP BEFORE. I CANT REMEMBER WHEN IVE BEEN THIS PISSED.
 anyways she eventually comes out and whispers that he tried to kiss her and there was some pushing around and my steam is...over the top.


anyways the night rolls on...
frustration and idiocy till we get back to her house..then time wasting till 2013.
no reason to connect or look at her.

no bonding. I knew she was wrong. she was dead wrong.
I deliver a death kiss and i can disappear forever. End of story.
Another heart broken gal and i remain a fuckin fire dweller of dark animosity...


Happy 2013, indeed.